I must say my ass is looking pretty fantastic 😋😁. Trainer told me that Thurs i can have 1751 calories which includes increase in carbs and fats😀. You don’t understand how excited it makes me. I started to think of what I’m wanting. I’m thinking pizza 🤤. But not sure yet. May just be a big ass bowl of popcorn 😂. What would you have?
2024-10-07 02:30:11 +0000 UTC View Post
Had posing practice with my trainer today. I also told her I’ve been in a pissy kind of mood all week. I’ve been short with some people. Basically shut my door at the office so not to deal with anyone. She just said it’s definitely due to lack of nutrition and it’s part of the process. This is why some never even make it to the stage because of the restrictive diet for months and then all the calorie reductions. Then you have 2-2.5 hour workouts. I’m still hanging in 😮💨. Super stressful at work until mid next week. Just two more weeks😖😩. Every time I see 11:11 I just ask for strength to get me thru this prep and take the stage. Hopefully the new competition suit gets sent soon and I’ll have to show you😋. Night night!
2024-10-05 03:37:05 +0000 UTC View Post
Y’all don’t realize how hungry I am😩. I’m really worried about my posing routine for the competition. I’m lacking the fluidity in movement 😖. Been practicing the walking and posing just to get comfortable in the shoes. After watching some walks tips , I’m questioning how I walk. The whole this is you want to have muscles, but represent as feminine! That’s the whole deal.
2024-10-04 01:55:53 +0000 UTC View Post
I’m just about reaching my breaking point. I’m sooo hungry, tired, and just…spent!!! Super stressed with a looming deadline to get financials submitted next week and another report that someone is asking for. Not like I’ve not provided the information to several times before to the former division president. The project I’m reporting on has been a fucking accounting nightmare!!!😖😩😮💨. I’m not in a great mood right now! Then I told my sister I was peeved at her because she’s made no comments about my doing this bodybuilding competition when I’ve texted her various comments about how I’m feeling or what I’m going through. Her response was that she didn’t know what to say. I said well you could be just a little supportive. The lack of response leads me to believe you don’t care or you’re just not interested. I get that, but you can still be supportive of someone, especially when she’s basically the only family I have left. We lost our mom 6 yrs ago. We don’t have alot in common, but have gotten closer over the years. Okay…stepping off my soapbox. I’m sorry 😞
2024-10-03 01:33:53 +0000 UTC View Post
Trainer did a follow up inbody scan. In 3 months I’ve lost 8.6 lbs fat, 4.8%body fat. I’d only lost 1 lb of muscle through this prep which is fantastic! The goal was to drop fat and retain as much muscle as possible! So now I’m at 17.3%body fat with just under 2 weeks til stage day😬. So still at very reduced caloric intake. Now it’s drinking as much water and keeping water in the muscles. Then late next week I’ll need to get rid of as much water between skin and muscles with diuretics 😩. Not a fan, but part of the process. Off to bed!
2024-10-02 02:10:12 +0000 UTC View Post
Closing in on stage day. 😬. Trainer dropped my carbs so I’m struggling again with the reduced caloric intake 😩. Okay off to bed. Workouts, work, home & prep for next day logging in everything I consume 😮💨. Please forgive me for not getting to your messages. I promise to get to what I can , but most after my competition. Night night.
Good m so proud of myself and happy with how my body is looking. Not perfect, but incredible gains!
Was doing my Sat morning check in pics when I decided to take these teasers for you😘. Enjoy your Saturday!
2024-09-28 16:01:17 +0000 UTC View Post
I’m hungry and it’s every thing I can do not to eat😮💨😩. I was think about what I wanted after competition. I’m really thinking I want pizza! Just mushrooms and pepperoni!!!
2024-09-28 03:34:17 +0000 UTC View Post
Haven’t felt well past couple days. Just very fatigued. Got a little more sleep last night which helped. I’m fairly certain it’s due to nutrition. Trainer just says I’m doing something right 🙄. Off to bed. Stay safe if you’re in the path of the hurricane! 😘
2024-09-27 02:22:07 +0000 UTC View Post
Had a tough workout this morning. Got to work then sat down and it was as if the energy drained out of my body. My muscles and body so fatigued!!! I ended up leaving work a little early. Not sure if I’m getting sick or the reduced calories. Hitting bed super early tonight!
2024-09-26 00:47:21 +0000 UTC View Post
Hopefully you appreciate the efforts that go into this bodybuilding prep. More posing practice. All my food is weighed…this is time consuming! I prep much of my cooked proteins, but the fruits and veggies only a day or two ahead. Thanks for understanding when I’m not able to respond to messages 😘. 25 days and counting! Don’t mind the ugly face during exercise 🤣
2024-09-25 01:55:53 +0000 UTC View Post
Videos taking forever to load so skipping after several attempts
2024-09-24 02:46:33 +0000 UTC View Post
Hey all thanks so much for the compliments on the suit. Been in contact with the company. I'm sending it back to get bigger size. I'd been looking at other competitors pics and the coverage isn't what it should be. I want to wear the suit well and feel like it looks like i stuffed myself into it. Spending $700😬 on it... I want it to look phenomenal on me. Or me look phenomenal in it 😄. Great news is finally completed the sale of my car so glad that's done! Off to bed. Early morning workout 😬😁. Night night 😘
2024-09-21 03:00:27 +0000 UTC View Post
Got my competition suit today. So the reveal video was before I sent concerns to my trainer. She made some suggestions like the sides of the bottoms needed to be higher and the top tied tighter. So the second vid has those adjustments. I'm still not sure about the fit and coverage 😬. Apparently it'll look differently on stage with lights and of course I'll have the dark spray tan look as well. The reason for that is because my pastey ass white skin absorbs the light 😂. The darker the skin the more the definitions of the muscles show. I'm just over 3 weeks out from the stage. She said I'll lean out a little more even revealing more definition and I continue working out trying to build my lower body to compete in the wellness division. I'd like to hear your feedback. My apologies for not getting to messages. Just not enough hours in the day🙄😬.
This whole thing kinda messes with your head. Like yesterday I was questioning whether I want to continue and today it was more like...fuck. There's only 3+ weeks. I've come this far and seen so much changes in my body...I can fucking do this!
I meant to send the legs out earlier as a tease. Anyways...look at that quad!!! Just now getting to bed. 😩
2024-09-19 03:17:11 +0000 UTC View Post
My apologies for not posting in a few days. The calorie reduction and adjustment of macros has me getting headaches in the late afternoons and are splitting in the evenings. I’ve been going to bed early. Adding salt substitute for the potassium into my pre workout and whenever else I salt stuff because I cramp so bad in my muscles. Apparently this all means I’m doing it correctly 😩. Idk how much longer I can take!!! I did get my suit ordered and should be here to try on for you in a few days. I’d show you a pic, but I don’t want to spoil the surprise. Off to the gym😘. Have a great day everyone. Love you 🥰
2024-09-17 09:06:33 +0000 UTC View Post
I’m dropping a bunch of pics from ast couple days. I have a date tomorrow with someone I’ve never met. I’m debating if I want to were a dress. I went shopping so you can weigh in if you’d like. Bad part is most were in the juniors dept🙄. Apparently sexy women dresses aren’t a thing 🙄🤣
2024-09-14 01:21:37 +0000 UTC View Post
My apologies for not responding to messages this week. Still stressing at work trying to meet my deadline. Give me another day or two 😘 Down 10 lbs over this past 7 weeks during this prep phase, another 5 to go.
2024-09-12 01:16:31 +0000 UTC View Post
Sometimes it’s more about form over how much weight your pushing and getting to failure that makes you stronger.
2024-09-11 01:37:16 +0000 UTC View Post
Had to show you my back pose. 👀 at those muscles 😁. Trainer cut my calories again just about 1300 for this week to see how my body responds. Then next week do a refeed whatever that entails, I’m not sure. Meeting tomorrow for someone to buy my car I’ve been trying to sell for months. Dropped the price. Just didn’t want to pay property tax on it next month and anymore payments. That’ll be a huge relief to have it gone! Busy next few days getting my financials submitted to corporate 😩. Night night 😘
2024-09-10 03:24:28 +0000 UTC View Post
Back. To work tomorrow 😩. Let the stress begin 😩
2024-09-09 02:02:25 +0000 UTC View Post
Good morning sexy😁. Made it to the beach yesterday. Here’s some pics. Getting in my workout this morning, brought all my food so I stay on track. Have a fabulous day 😘
2024-09-07 14:08:22 +0000 UTC View Post
Heading to the beach tomorrow. Have an awesome weekend 😘
2024-09-06 02:39:04 +0000 UTC View Post
Been a hugely busy week!!! Monthly closing and upcoming mandatory company beach trip. It’s not ideal, especially with the prep for competition so I’ve food prepped as much as I can and will take a cooler full so I can stay on track! I’m dreading the 4 hour drive 😩😩😩😫! Hope to video some naughty stuff 😈🤭
2024-09-05 03:03:46 +0000 UTC View Post
My pics sucked this morning. Was in a rush 🙄. Here’s some bikini shots from Mon. 😘
2024-09-04 01:22:58 +0000 UTC View Post
I’m still super stoked on my progress. I did my checkin with my trainer. She wants me to cut more calories and carbs and fat. I don’t know how I’m going to make that happen 😖😩. I’m already hungry all the time and I still have 6 weeks to go.
2024-09-01 02:46:47 +0000 UTC View Post
Was feeling extremely hungry all day today. 😩. Yes, I know I’m doing this to myself. 😂. I have goals. 😘
2024-08-31 02:40:05 +0000 UTC View Post
Today’s workout was a struggle at times. Still at the 2 hour mark for workouts. I don’t mind the longer workouts, just hate getting to work at 8.45 ish😖. Just means I stay later. I was again kinda geeking out on the lat and back muscles. Trainer wants to do an upper body workout on Mon. Have a good night everyone 😘
2024-08-30 02:19:21 +0000 UTC View Post
