This isn’t a sexy post, it’s a terribly honest one. That was your trigger warning for uncomfortable medical stuff!
In early September, I went into a plastic surgeon for a breast lift and implants - some personal sculpting. I had high hopes for a glorious outcome and started prematurely posting about it here. Less than two weeks after the surgery, I started experiencing complications. Necrosis developed on the left side, and on both sides, the seams opened up. There was a week or two I was terrified I might lose my favorite nipple and it will be a while before I know if it still works - at the moment it’s a bit folded up and numb.
For someone who has been fortunate to never have any medical issues, this rare scenario never seemed possible until it was happening to me. As much as I hated to undo the work I went through hell to get done, for safety, I had the implants removed and I’ve been healing ever since. I’m much smaller on top than when I went in and it will take some reconstructive efforts before I feel comfortable fully topless again.
It has been a MAJOR bummer and pretty traumatic to go through. I’m not quite done feeling sorry for myself, but the more I heal the more my energy is returning. I’ve been starting to feel more playful again at least and missing Onlyfans and our conversations. Although it’s frustrating not to be able to use my upper body, maybe it will encourage me to be more creative here!
My Dressing Room is finally put together! This is my special room for getting dressed up to go out, storing all costumes, wigs and lingerie - all of the impractical accessories I’ve collected over the years. It’s also the room where I’m taking photos, videos, soon recording podcasts and doing collabs with other creators. It’s so important to make space to create, don’t you think?
photo by Danny Vasquez aka @eggshoneyandham on instagram
Those new thigh high oil slick stripper boots have reawakened my confidence and passion. I’m lounging around the house wearing nothing else! This set is all about boots and booty. You’re gonna love! 🍑👢👢
photos by Danny Vasquez aka @eggshoneyandham on instagram
Sorry for my absence.
Things didn’t go well with post surgery recovery. In fact, they went so horribly wrong I haven’t been able to face y’all. I’ve been depressed and hiding in my bedroom a lot the past several weeks. I’ll share more details soon but there was a three-way tie for the contest I posted to get first looks at the new breasts and I realize it’s time to announce to them via DMs that the outcome will be shockingly different than what I was expecting - in fact, the complete opposite. 😱😭
I’m still healing and coping with the disaster. ❤️🩹
I have some very hot moments from the OF Creators Guild poolside mixer to share but while I am getting permissions from the other creators, let me wet your whistle with a little taste of the ever delightful @eladarling! Here are quite a few photos of the two of us touching, cuddling, and kissing. See if you can spot the tease-y bikini nip slips!
Tomorrow I’ll be posting a great little set from the second official @ofcreatorsguild mixer which happened to be my last pool party of the year! I’ll also be adding some group photos to that account soon so you can check out all of the cool, gorgeous, and stylish OF creators I’ve been meeting!
Last night I went on a date and decided to take the last post poll results as advice and inspiration. Surprisingly, I have never carved fun shapes into my pubic hair but I think it might be a great new medium for me. My first self-canvas creation is a lovely little furry heart - open to see the outcome! ♥️
(Inner circle ⭕️ should check their DMs for the making-of video!)
I sent a shower video to my inner circle ⭕️ recently about how I want to make a pubic hair shaving video and maybe even get creative with it. I’ve been preparing my canvas and allowing the RETURN OF THE BUSH. It’s getting there, but for a real impact I might want to give it a couple more weeks of growing time. Already this is way more hair than I’ve allowed in a good, long while.
Snapped this pic of my progress in the shower this morning. What’s your preference?
Happy October aka Halloween month! I wanted to let y’all know what has been happening and what you can expect in the near future from my page. This recovery process has hit some speed bumps but there will be more fun offerings coming very soon!
It was wonderful live streaming the unboxing of a bunch of Amazon wishlist gifts with you tonight. Thanks again to everyone who sent me something! It made me feel really good.
I also talked about the “conscious play party” I attended recently and the new kink I discovered I have when I was there. Lots of honest talk in this one. If you’re curious, be sure to watch!
Technical problems broke this livestream into two videos. The first video is all about love languages. The majority of the live stream is covered in the second video. There is no nudity in either video.
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Wow! I’m feeling very cared for right now thanks to some of you who sent presents from my Amazon wishlist. Tonight I’m going to do an unboxing livestream at 9pm CST!
It occurs to me that I never told the story about the recent “conscious play party” I went to with “D” the the dishwasher repairman, so that’s also on the agenda. Don’t miss it!
I’m just lying here with a cool rag over my chest, already feeling a lot better and getting pretty damn excited y’all!
How curious are you?? *The person who tips the most on this post will get first PPV access to the big reveal photo set!*
Recovery has been not only a physical adventure but an emotional one! Today I’m feeling very grateful for many things, but mostly my friendships, the ability to communicate, and my tough body that has done some real badass shit over the course of my life and seems to be hanging in there. 🙏
Yesterday was my surgery and I’ve been in bed all day, super sore, and working on healing. I just want the world to bring me soup, flowers and presents.
If you’re the sugar daddy type or get off on nurturing, you might want to check out my wishlist!
https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/10DXJA6T6AG3Q?ref_=wl_share
The week flew by and I scarcely feel ready for tomorrow’s transformation! I am not sure how recovery will go, so I may go dark on here for a bit. When I’m down for the count I love to watch that show Medium with Patricia Arquette, don’t ask me why. What’s your go-to healing tv show?
Wish me luck!!! 😅
My recent addiction to live music and dancing has been a much more exciting way to get exercise than going to the gym. I’ve notice that since I started, I have more energy, a brighter attitude, and I find myself moving to any music I hear, anywhere!
Meeting people while out dancing is also more entertaining than endlessly swiping and creating pathetic penpal relationships that go nowhere on dating apps. In a three minute song, I can pick up on whether there might be chemistry between us and a pretty good idea of how well they know how to use their body. The right fit can feel like skipping straight to foreplay on the dance floor.
If you compare that to the time it takes to match on an app, chat long enough to exchange phone numbers, text, set up a date, finally go out (if you *even* make it that far) and make small talk for an hour, it's a marvelous life hack!
I have some pretty BIG news… can you guess?
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Next week I’ll be doing some self-sculpting and getting breast implants. It’s not for everyone, but personally I like a little extra flare! 🪩🪩 Also, you might be able to tell from my tattoos that I’m not opposed to body modification. Natural schmatural! 👽💃
While I’m healing, I will have to get a little more creative with my content here until the
BIG REVEAL 👀. What’s a part of the body you feel doesn’t get enough credit for being sexy? 🙌🏻
I’ve actually been getting some shit from people I have only known since I’ve been a chainsaw carver (the past 11 years) who tell me that they liked my more masculine presenting look (ie work clothes) that they have gotten used to, and have even suggested I’m not acting like myself right now since I’ve been wearing dresses on Facebook. It’s funny to me that people think they understand who you are because of the photos you’ve happened to post for the relatively short amount of time you might have known them, and only for one aspect of your life. I was a workaholic for a long time and rarely appeared in anything except paint shirts, steel toed boots and chainsaw chaps. Clothing can really express how we want to be perceived by others, without question. But people are multifaceted and if you’re fortunate enough to have the closet space, you can reflect that internal flexibility through fashion. This lemon skirt makes me feel fresh, classy, feminine, optimistic and it’s a nice length for dancing. 🍋 💃
I am a chainsaw carver, but I’m a bunch of things and will probably continue to collect even more interests, hobbies, gigs, businesses and side hustles in the future. I appreciate that some folks love the work-clothes look, but please understand I do sometimes clean up and go honkytonking. 💋
Stomping in kinda late tonight pretty wound up from two steppin’!👢🤠
I had a real good time dancing with several men and one super gorgeous red-headed woman I very much hope I run into again. It’s SO much fun moving with others’ bodies in unison to the music and physically *listening* to each other.
When I got home and took off my clothes I realized just how good dancing was feeling and how excited it got me! My black lace panties are a juicy mess. 💦
Is it weird that I really want to show you?
I just found this photo from my birthday in April which I have almost no memory of, so it must have been a good party. Based on the photographic evidence, @eladarling offered herself as a present 🎁 or maybe she was the cake. 🎂
NSFW / KINKY
I've discovered over the years that my erotic interests are much like the rest of my interests; varied and ever expanding! My joy is rooted in having plenty of variety, and possibly having just a little MORE than I need. And when I want more excitement, more sensation, and more creativity in the bedroom, I connect with the kink community.
One person I can always count on to introduce me to something thrilling is @la_convoitise_des_yeux (on Onlyfans) who, in addition to tattooing and shibari, is also a genius fabricator of erotic accessories. The last time I stepped into his darkly beautiful dungeon was no exception. Here's a photo set from our collaborative adventure.
He deftly wove his shibari rope around my body until I was helplessly bound to his chair, with one leg in the air tied to a hook in the ceiling. Then, let's just say he gave me product demonstrations of several of his hand-made play tools. He has a delightfully dirty mind and his creations are absolutely meticulous and inspired. You can browse his selection and order custom designs at instagram.com/loiseau_noir_bespoke.
(Trigger Notification - although there are photos in this set where I am posing with play accessories, there are NO impact moments in the attached videos and are, in that sense, pretty safe to view.)
