I am the type of person to be fully transparent, vulnerable,..
Added 2024-10-12 09:35:33 +0000 UTCI am the type of person to be fully transparent, vulnerable, & open. I would like to think that my only fans should only be about sex, but I feel a call to write about my personal relationship dynamics and experiences maybe for other people to relate to. I know I personally am struggling to identify how to be within a intimate relationship with others while also maintaining independence.
For me I have suffered a lot of loss actually. I had a partner, my absolute best friend and the love of my life but recently, they have passed on. Forever am grateful to have experienced the character my husband was when he was physically here, but now, I have to connect with new people and it is hard to understand others and how they may operate from their past experiences without my own getting in the way (undoing a form of codependency).
Not to mention, I tend to meet a lot of guys who are awkward as fuck. The other day I met up a person, whom I knew liked me, but I never said anything and was not trying to signal or give any sign that I was into them. We did hang out but then at the end, they tried to kiss me and I completely rejected them. I did not want to be kissed ☠️
Anywho, I think I should keep writing about my truthful experiences. Definitely struggling on how to relate to others externally in an intimate way of being, while also doing this type of sex work. It’s an interesting thing to wrestle in my mind.
